2.) My three big ideas: Change, loss and challenges.

3.)

Change:

This represents change. Change is something that everyone on earth faces on a day-to-day basis and sometimes in hard to avoid it. We all choose for ourselves what we want different in our lives and we leave it in God’s hands to run smoothly.

Loss:

This represents loss. Loss is something we all experience, but hate to live with. It’s a feeling of no belonging and having no idea what to do or say. Loss is something we live with and have to handle one step at a time.

Challenges:

This photo shows challenges. Challenges come in many different types. This picture is showing the challenge of achieving a goal. But there can also be challenges at work, at school, and relationships. And when these things are conquered or resolved it feels amazing.

My family hasn’t always been the type of family to go on trip’s every year to multiple places. Before we always decided that we rather put our money towards are own house or our athletics; you know things like that. But this year we decided to change things up. On christmas day I grabbed my swim suit, and towel a few shirts and put them in my suit case, and on boxing day we drove to the airport and headed to Mexico. The first thing’s I experienced when I stepped off the airplane was relief, excitement, humidity and sweat. I couldn’t believe the temperature change from Calgary to Mexico, it felt like a billion degrees. But all I knew was that I had a week to get used to it so I was fine. The majority of the days there were spent soaking up the sun on the beach, eating, sleeping and partying. There wasn’t a moment there I spent time relaxing or doing nothing. It was really cool to because I was there on new years, lets just say a Mexican new year’s party is nothing like one in Lethbridge.

I’m sorry that I’m not going into to much of detail but its such an indescribable experience. I’m finding it way to hard where to start and where to end, so I guess that’s it. For now………………..

1. What was your problem or conflict? My entire family had neglected me my whole life, it was always the bar before me. Having grown up in such a frightful and negative home, it has definitely contributed to the way I act and who I am. I am now an alcoholic, a drug addict, been molested, cheat on my wife on daily basis, but I am also a hockey superstar.

2. How did I immediately act or react when I realized I had a problem or conflict? These experiences happened to me at such a young age I could only really handle it one way. Since I grew up with those terrible things around me everyday, I knew that it would one day come upon me. At the time it felt like my only destiny, but then I remembered the greatest gift I have, hockey.

3. What did I think about before I decided what to do about the problem? I was definitely thinking about my life, but there was way to much to focus on. All I truly wanted to focus on was hockey, I was always thinking about my stride, the puck on my stick and visualizing each and every time I’m on the ice. In these times I really am where I want to be.

4. What actions did I consider? I considered quite a few things. Talking to my parents, not taking any action, leaving home and living at the hockey rink, and taking the worst road possible.

5. What choice did I make? I decided that it was easiest for me to take the worst road possible. When I wasn’t on the ice I was drinking, smoking and getting in trouble. But I knew when it was hockey time, it was time for hockey. I always played my heart out and always left everything on the ice. Even if I showed up the next day to practice not having one hour of sleep the night before.

6. What choice do I wish I had made? I think that it would of made my life a lot easier to stay away from the things that made my day harder every week. But I was quite the fighter. Having to face those mountains everyday never killed me, it only made me stronger. It really contributed to the all-star I am today, it made me the all-star I am today.

7. What was the consequence of my choice? It resulted in many years of me being alone. The only people I knew were my team mates and the random people at the bar. In the end I overcame every single obstacle in my life. In the end no one can take away the love of my life and my Stanley Cup ring.

I find it really hard to connect suicide to my life. The word has ran through my teenage mind a few times but never really thought about it. I think that why ever would you want to throw away such a gift from God. I think that the gift of life is the greatest gift of all.

I can sort of understand why Theo would make that decision. Doing drugs, being an alcoholic, going through a divorce, cheating, getting cheated on, getting molested and going through the pressures of being a superstar would really make life suck, to him I think it felt pointless. And with having no parent figure to help him along the way, there is no trust, no hope, no faith. Its amazing how depression can have such an impact on someone’s life.

Then that’s what got me think about my life, once again. I learned always through my life to never give up and always have hope. I know that I will always have support along the way and never have to face challenges alone. I’ll always have my friends, family and God.

You have no idea how many times I’ve ran such random things and questions without answers through my mind. Like; am i going to marry? Or when am I going to buy my first house? Where is it going to be? And who’s going to be living in it with me? … If anyone. Lately I have decided what I kind of want my future to look like. I want to receive a master’s, become a teacher, own a cabin somewhere either in B.C. or Whitefish, and spend as much as the time possible there.

Even though I grew up a city boy, I always though myself of being a true outdoors men; hence owning the cabin. I love camping, fishing, hiking, biking, swimming, snowboarding, skiing, boating and kayaking. For me I really want to do the most I can in my life time. Once again, hence the teaching. I always think about why God put me here and how can I live life to the fullest every day. I’ve always bin told that I am such a strong leader so why not use that skill to change lives of the people that I could possibly work for everyday of my life. Why not inspire people the way that I have been inspired by my teachers, to do great things and live up to my greatest potential.

In the end I really hope what I do in life is what God put me here to do, and if I am right, I hope I do it to the best of my abilities and make God proud. Finally most of all, I really hope I get to own a cabin.

Emmie, the main character in my book has faced many loses. First she lost her best friend her dog, then she lost her dad. He didn’t die or anything like that, he just took a long leave of absence. And in TSB Cole lost his parent’s mainly from bad decisions and alcohol. Cole was always so mad at his parents, it caused him to make bad decisions. But for Emmie she was just really scared, she missed her best friend and dad.

Second Comparision: PLOT

In both of my books its really about both characters having to deal with the difficult times in there lives. And figuring out how to deal with them. In TSB Cole has to figure out how to control his emotions and his anger. In my book, Emmie is trying to figure out what kind of emotions she is dealing with. Emmie is really shy so she just always went along with the motions. But Cole took them head and usually just ended up fighting with himself.

Third Comparsion: THEME

Emmie had to go on, and keep living her life. Even when things came along a made life difficult she just kept living it like normal. Emmie almost made it like losing her dog, losing her dad and having the crazy man live with didn’t even happen. In the end Emmie was very to hesrelf. I found that Cole in TSB was the complete opposite. Yes, he faced difficulties but handled them in a completely different way. When he got angry he faced that anger by throwing fists. But as his life went on, I think that he really learned how to attack problems.

I am nearly finished the book “The Crazy Man”. Recently the main character decided to have a birthday party, so she handed out invitations to all of her friends.

This past year I had quite the large and exciting gaming session for my 14th birthday party. In my basement I had four TV’s, four XBOX 360′s, four Halo 3 game discs, sixteen controllers and sixteen players. My parents weren’t at all stoked on the idea, but I sure was.  At first I really didn’t know what to expect. I wasn’t sure whether to be excited or worried. With sixteen teenage boys in such a confined space something or someone is bound to break. For example; last year J.H. put a hole in my wall with an air soft gun, but this year it was different. There was no blood, no holes and no injuries but there were tears shed. But that was just from getting killed or loosing. In the end you really don’t know whats going to happen in your life along the way. There are many mountains you have to get over, but most importantly you need to face them one at a time and always hope and try for the best.

I have won a few awards in my past from golf, volleyball, basketball, track and field badminton and most of all hockey. I think I have always worked for hard for my achievements and working hard has gotten me to where I am today. In the past I have never had the greatest team mates in the world and never, ever got to play the same age of people I am. I have always had to play up. But I always did my best and took in as much as possible. Coaches have been some of the greatest role models in my life, they have made me the athlete that I am today. And lately I have also earned a few academic awards.

At this years awards night I went home with a School Spirit Award, A V with a stripe, A Championship Crest, A Honor Roll Award and The Highest Academic Average for Males. Since the beginning of time one of my main goals was to be great academically and I have always tried my best to achieve that. It has always been pretty hard for me to keep up my marks with all the sports I play. Like in grade 7, I was playing hockey 6 nights a week and basketball 4 times week. And with homework on top of that sometimes it just got way too hectic.

In the end, for myself and anyone to get anywhere in life it takes tons of hard work, heart and drive. And truly think that today I poses those skills.